“I love the Lord because he has heard my voice and my pleas for mercy. Because he inclined his ear to me, therefore I will call on him as long as I live” (Psalm 116:1-2).
Are you a fixer? When a loved one comes to you for emotional support, do you try and share what you think would be a good solution to their problem? It is normal to feel uneasy when someone we love is in pain. A typical response would be to try and find a way to make them feel better. Thus the race to find a way to fix it begins.
I promise you don’t have to try confession if you still don’t want to after you read this blog. Confession, unfortunately, has a negative connotation for most of us.
We harbor feelings of guilt, pain, regret, bitterness and many other negative emotions because we are fearful of what that says about us as a person. We feel the need to hide our imperfections, negative thoughts, shaming memories and darkest emotions from others, and perhaps more significantly from ourselves.
I have learned over the past year that the act of confession is where, and when, God begins to truly heal us – emotionally and spiritually. Whether you write down the negative, shaming sins in your life, or just pour them out as you speak to God in prayer try to be as vulnerable as you can be in this process. You are purging your body of lies and toxic poisons on a spiritual level. Confession releases burdens we have been carrying without even realizing the heaviness of our load.
The last step you need to take is to look up from where you are kneeling, into the face of the one who loved you so much that he paid the price for all our sins.
May you see the Lord Jesus, with a smile of great joy, tears in His eyes because he has been waiting for you to come. He has a balm for your soul, tenderness beyond measure, and healing. He will not do it in the way you expect, remember to trust Him for His way is always better than ours. God’s banquet table is overflowing with His gifts which He wants to lavish upon His children. He is waiting for you to come to His table and sit with Him. Healing may not happen as quickly or as painless as we would like but when our heavenly Father heals us there is joy.
May you walk with Him and know this joy. We at the Barnabas Center know what it is to be a sinner. We also have need of confession. We are here for you if you need help in your journey.
If you or someone you know is having suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline